Because of Jesus Reality is Safe for Lyn
I used to live in dream worlds I created. Children of sexual abuse learn to escape in their minds from what is happening to their bodies. Unfortunately, that necessary coping skill can become a mental pattern and prison into adulthood. It did for me.
The wonderful places in my head made real life pale in comparison. My dream worlds didn’t have problems, hurts, disappointments, or failures. No one hurt me there. Risks I took always resulted in fame and fortune. The men I fell in love with were perfect. They anticipated and met all my needs, understood me, and took me on lavish trips all around the world.
The spiritual truth is that I was looking for real love. It had taken on a cartoon-like glow in my mind but my heart sincerely wanted to be loved without being hurt. My sexual abuse was from a family member, so love and intimacy were very confusing to me. I didn’t understand how the two went together, so I came up with my own way of combining them, which left God out and was entirely unrealistic.
I managed to live in both worlds for years, and thought I was doing well. But as is true for every person for all time, secret sin catches up with us and takes us down.
Jesus arms were around me the whole time! He carried me to a Biblical counselor who walked me through the steps to healing and wholeness. It was a long, painful journey but so worth it!
God gently massaged my heart with His unconditional, genuine love and transformed my mind into spiritual health and alertness. Today, I love my life! My real life. I embrace all of it. It takes constant vigilance but I face my reality, no matter what it is, every day in the power of the Holy Spirit. He fills me with all I need for life and godliness. I’m in it! I’m all about it!
Really living … because of Jesus.
Lyn Smith is passionate about God and His Word. She is an international Bible teacher, inspirational speaker, and writer. On the speaking and writing team of LeadHer, she is also a state speaker for the Baptist General Convention of Oklahoma, serves on their human trafficking task force, and is a contributing writer of Pastors.com. She lives in Oklahoma with her husband and three children. When she isn’t doing life in her stilettos, you will find her running in her favorite sneakers. You can find Lyn at www.lynsmith.org, on Facebook at http://www.facebook.com/lynsmithls, and on Twitter as @Lyn_Smith.
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About Jennifer O. White
I'm a simple wife who has discovered God's amazing gift of prayer. Here at Prayerfully Speaking I share my journey of unwrapping this gift. God invites us to ask Him, but His enemy works diligently to keep that from happening. I hope to offer you encouragement to believe God is ready to pour more into your life than you've ever imaged.