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Elated and Discouraged in the Same Day!

Yesterday morning was incredible! I enjoyed a great visit with Gary & Norma Smalley and wrapped up a video shoot for their upcoming book trailer. What an honor to witness their love and the lessons they’ve learned in over 47 years of marriage. I left there on a high. I learned so much and they were great fun to be with. I felt like I had done a good job at my job.

Fast forward to 2pm when I walked into a wall of discouragement regarding my job. Why does that happen? Why do I let it happen? I know the truth – I chose my reactions. I choose! It’s my responsibility.

A few years back a supervisor was delighted to tell me that he was not the source of mine or anyone’s stress. Seriously, someone had taught him the truth – we choose our response to people and circumstances.

Yesterday I did not choose well. Perhaps the 10 hour headache weakened my fortress. Maybe my emotional bank was on E (empty) and one phrase depleted my resources. Regardless of my excuses – I got a little emotional about it.

Truth is my pride welled up like an allergic reaction. I did not make fantastic choices in how I dealt with the discouragement. Sweet and “safe” friends did give me room to look ridiculous while I processed and reacted and processed and reacted.

Today, I’m wanting to “DO” the right thing. I want to:

  • celebrate the morning and listen to God on the subject of why I enjoyed it so much
  • face my pride and reactions to discouragement
  • establish a few boundaries
  • learn to be more resilient on days like this

In the psalms David spends some time lamenting and celebrating.

Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. Psalm 42:5

And there is my answer. Take my mind off myself and my circumstances. Focus on God. Focus on God. Focus on God, Jennifer.

Time to go to work and time to start praising Him.

About Jennifer O. White

I'm a simple wife who has discovered God's amazing gift of prayer. Here at Prayerfully Speaking I share my journey of unwrapping this gift. God invites us to ask Him, but His enemy works diligently to keep that from happening. I hope to offer you encouragement to believe God is ready to pour more into your life than you've ever imaged.

4 Replies

  1. Ugh, you said it! Been there (recently), felt the rage…..then eventually came His peace. I had to work on my forgiveness muscle, and taking responsibility for my actions rather than trying to place the blame elsewhere with my self-righteousness. Blah.

    So sorry you’re dealing with issues, but it’s kind of nice to know that God is stretching and growing you. =)

    Have a blessed day!

    1. Jennifer White

      Sweet friend. Rage is the word – and it’s uncalled for. Seriously – I’m aggravated with myself for having this many feelings about it. Turning on the praise music and yes – thankful God is growing and stretching me.

  2. Heidi

    Thanks Jennifer
    I like that part about what your superviser said about stress and how you added that “we” choose our response.That is a keeper!

    1. Jennifer White

      Heidi – he IS a wise man. I’m sure you’ve heard his name at church – Jim Sedlachek