Humility & Healing – a Beautiful Combination
In the last few months, God has intervened in my life in very simple ways. (I can’t wait to tell you this story!)
For at least seven years I struggled with a very short attention span and recall issues. It felt like I didn’t have the mental energy to hold onto a thought. It was embarrassing to me not to remember what my friends were talking about, not to be “on” at work, and to lose things. I was nervous about my future. It was very humbling not to be at my best. I was not the impressive person I wanted to be.
I blamed it on my hormones a lot. I looked for supplements, doctors, and answers. Nothing seemed to make a difference. So much seemed to be at stake; job, relationships, and influence to name a few. I was not who I wanted to be.
It could be that praying for God to humble me was working. Yes – I actually prayed that prayer. It was not a premeditated prayer. It was something God spoke into heart. I remember driving down Hwy 86 one morning realizing that I was asking God to humble me. That is not natural! It was surely a “super natural” moment. Since then, when I am really quiet, I still hear myself asking God for the humility He wants from me.
Of course I’ve asked God to fix my mind and renew my health for years. And others have prayed for me as well. But something wonderful happened while I was waiting. I learned that His power is perfect when I am weak. I can boast about my weaknesses to God (see 1 Corinthians 12:9). I welcomed His power to rest on my weaknesses and began to see Him accomplishing great things (instead of working to make sure I was accomplishing great things). Because I was “inept”, I started relying on Him. It was a SLOW going remedial course in humility. I am DELIGHTED that it happened. It allowed me to see Him and what He could do. My focus changed.
Fast forward to the first six months of this year when the following happened:
- a Christian friend admitted she was reading about ADD and found help in this book. I discovered the simple supplement L-Tyrosine (an amino acid) and began to see a big change in my ability to focus and remember.
- because of God’s prompting, two mature Christian women began to pray for me.
- our small group began to study the power of the Holy Spirit which opened my eyes in a wonderful way.
- I began to relax (as if I had been dipped in peace) instead of trying to FIX things. This seemed to be an immediate reaction to reading Life Without Strain; a gift from one of those praying friends I mentioned.
- God invited me to focus on being my husband’s best friend.
- David and I were invited to move into the farm house on his brother and sister-in-law’s land. It’s a dream come true for me with cows, horses, barns, ponds, and 120 acres of beautiful pasture land. It’s quaint, small, simple, and perfect for us. We are both very happy there. What a gift for our souls. (It is our home away from our Branson home)
- I have joined two new friends whose ministry, Imperfect Wives, is based on 1 Corinthians 12:9 on a book project. (stay tuned for details)
God has done many more things than this incredible list of highlights. I hope it inspires you to focus on Him and His strength to do incredible things in the midst of your weakness. I hope you will use 20 seconds of courage and ask Him to humble you and watch for the miracles that WILL transform your life. I am confident that it will be more than you can ask or imagine.
About Jennifer O. White
I'm a simple wife who has discovered God's amazing gift of prayer. Here at Prayerfully Speaking I share my journey of unwrapping this gift. God invites us to ask Him, but His enemy works diligently to keep that from happening. I hope to offer you encouragement to believe God is ready to pour more into your life than you've ever imaged.