Perplexed by God
I’m continuing through Mark Batterson’s book – The Circle Maker: Praying Circles Around Your Biggest Dreams and Greatest Fears. I’m processing this idea of being “perplexed by God”. There are several things in mine and David’s life that are perplexing – like why do we live apart in a commuter marriage? Why did we feel led by God to build a house in Branson that now keeps us apart much of the time. Other issues make us wonder what God could be doing in these places of such great need. Our logical minds can’t see how this could be good or right or what God wanted to happen.
Here are a few lines that jumped off the page for me and are helping me re-frame my thoughts and prayers:
- All of us want to be amazed by God, right? It’s easy to pray, “Amaze me!” But I don’t know anyone who prays, “Perplex me!” But it’s a package deal. If you aren’t willing to be perplexed, you’ll never be amazed.
So, I’m going to trust that the amazement will come when I can see the fruit of what perplexed me so much.
- Instead of operating by faith, we switch back to our default setting of logic. Instead of embracing the new move of God, we fall back into the rut of our old routines.
I want to change our circumstances. My logical mind works on plans. But God is prompting me to wait patiently. My motto is – I don’t want to be a Sarah who goes and finds a Hagar and causes even more problems. I will wait.
- If you are not open to the unprecedented, you will repeat history. If you are open to the unprecedented, you will change history. The difference is prayer.
Life is so much easier when you have a reference point – something so we can say – “last time when we did this – this happened.” But the Israelites had never seen a sea separate to create a path to walk through. No city walls had ever fallen because people circled it seven times. I could go on and on. God is creative and all powerful. He can do things we’ve never imagined are possible. He will do those things. I’m determined to let Him and not get in His way with my personal logic.
I want to change my automatic responses to perplexing situations. I want to have such great faith in God’s character that I look at a situation and know that God will one day use this situation to amaze me. And through it He will show me how much He loves me and how His wisdom was at work creating a bigger life than I would have ever asked Him for.
What about you? Are you perplexed by God? Are you standing at the cliff of “I will fix this myself and I will let God take this and run with it?” I pray that we all relinquish control to the one who can and will amaze us.
About Jennifer O. White
I'm a simple wife who has discovered God's amazing gift of prayer. Here at Prayerfully Speaking I share my journey of unwrapping this gift. God invites us to ask Him, but His enemy works diligently to keep that from happening. I hope to offer you encouragement to believe God is ready to pour more into your life than you've ever imaged.