Hello!
It’s been almost seven months since my last blog post here. Thank you for your patience while I’ve been on this extended break from writing. I’ve missed connecting with you.
How are you? Is your faith in our God growing? Mine has been stretched further than I ever imagined.
I would like to share a little about what led to my writing hiatus.
In the midst of a very busy year of publishing my second book, working part time, and losing my mother-in-law due to a massive stroke, our faithful Father began to answer some very specific prayers.
I had asked Him to help me pray – to put His prayers in my mouth. I began to pray for the fullness of His light to dispel any darkness in my life. I discovered Isaiah 52:1 and began to pray it repeatedly over myself.
Wake up, wake up, O Zion! Clothe yourself with strength. Put on your beautiful clothes, O holy city of Jerusalem, for unclean and godless people will enter your gates no longer.
As I prayed, God moved on my behalf. He revealed that David, my husband of 19 years, was hiding many things from me. The Lord strengthened me to confront him several times and to pray for him and our marriage unceasingly.
Unfortunately, David’s response to my knowledge of the truth has led me to separate from him and file for divorce. I never considered this as an option for us. I cherished David and our marriage. If you had told me a year ago that I would be making this decision, I would have told you how wrong you were about me.
It may appear to you that my choice reveals a weak faith in the God of miracles. I’ve wrestled with that question and the answer is No! My faith has not weakened. My faith is stronger and I am more reliant on God in this than I’ve ever been before. I’ve been prayerfully desperate for His help and He has supplied it. I have purposefully chosen to trust in the Lord and lean not on my own understanding. The wisdom He provided is not what I expected for my life.
God has not failed me and He has not failed this marriage. I’ve prayed God’s Word over myself, David and our marriage for over a decade. God promises His Word will not return void. I am confident that I did not waste my time praying. While there is so much I do not understand about how this has happened, I am standing firm on the promise that God is working all things together for my good.
This has been the most intense battle I’ve faced in life. God has been so present, so powerful, so generous, and so helpful. I’ve witnessed many miracles in the midst of this life-altering heartache.
I’ve been seeking the Lord’s wisdom on when to share this part of my journey with you. It’s so personal and yet it is so relevant to the reason you’ve subscribed to receive my blog posts – prayer and marriage. I am confident the Lord’s prompting that the time is now.
Would you pray for me as I walk through this very unexpected and shocking time of transition? Would you specifically pray for God’s will to be done and for me to have extra portions of wisdom, strength, courage, and humility before the Lord? Would you pray for David too?
I’d like to pray for you now:
May our God strengthen your faith in Him and strengthen you to resist any schemes of the enemy to use my situation to discourage you. May our God magnify your passionate pursuit of Him and your confidence in His goodness toward you even in the most difficult days. May His Word continue to heal and deliver you. May His love for you become even more obvious to you and fill you with joy and peace.
In Jesus, I pray. Amen
Psalm 29:11 – The Lord gives his people strength. The Lord blesses them with peace.